Love is Enough

I haven't told very many people this, but before I chose to go into Nursing I wanted to be a writer. Not the type that sat at a desk all day writing about things they weren't passionate about, but the type that could captivate the attention and hearts of people she didn't even know. So that's kind of why I created this blog. I needed another outlet; another way to express everything that was going on in my mind.

People say I'm hard to get to know and that I'm hard to crack. And I'll let you in on a little secret...I don't do it on purpose. It's not at all because I'm afraid that once people really get to know me, they'll want to leave or anything like that. It's because I've had my heart broken and I don't just hand out the key to my heart to everyone I know anymore. I used to; I used to be easy to get to know and unafraid to be vulnerable. But I feel like once you give your heart to someone and they break it, you're never really go back to the way you were before.

Love is a crazy thing.

My first 3 semesters in college have taught me more than I could ever imagine. I mean, obviously I've learned a lot academically. I'm a complete nerd now, you can ask me anything about anatomy or microbiology and I can probably give you the answer. However, I have never been so convinced that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be. Besides school, I've learned how to love; that no matter what, love is just enough. God has showed me this past semester that I've been blessed with the gift of loving people and seeing the good in them. I would sit on the bus, look around at all the people, and just think how beautiful and unique each person was. I'd always wonder what storm they were going through or how much a small gesture of kindness would affect them.

Love means the world to me. I believe it is one of the most powerful things out there. If my God is love (which He definitely IS), then it proves that it is the most powerful thing we are given on Earth. I truly believe that loving others and showing them you care is the most important thing.

Midway through the last semester, loving people began to feel like such a burden suddenly. I'm not the type to love half-heartedly. When you're my friend, I will literally do anything for you. It's because I love my friends and they mean so much to me. But sometimes, loving so much causes you to have higher expectations. And this caused problems for me. I began questioning my friendships and if my friends would go the extra mile for me like I would for them.

But I learned that no matter what, God's love is most definitely more than enough for me. He loves me perfectly and is never conditional in His love. He loves me regardless of anything I do. He sent his perfect Son onto this disgusting Earth so that He could die for everyone; for a girl who would not exist for another 2000 years. IT'S SO CRAZY. So when I feel like my friends let me down or that I'm not good enough, I remember that His love is beyond enough. Even if I was the only person on this Earth, He would still send His Son to die for me and my sins in a heartbeat.

What does that have to do with anything? I mean, it's kind of the name of my blog my friend. I want to document everything related to love in my life. The highs, the lows, and everything in between.

Because of love, I can breathe. Love has inspired me. I'm currently a Pre-nursing student, getting ready to submit my Nursing School application in less than 3 months. I have dreams, dreams that literally help me get out of bed in the morning when classes are too tough or circumstances are too complicated.

I have 2 months to write the essay for my Nursing School application. Yesterday, I took my final exam for my Fall semester of college, drove home, sat down, then wrote my whole essay. I guess when you're inspired, you're inspired.

Why do I want to be a nurse, you ask? The answer is so simple.

I want to be the arms that welcome newborns into this world and I want to be the hand that comforts the dying. In a world where diseases are so complicated, outcomes are so uncertain, and single moments can determine someone's fate, I want to bring simplicity and strength.

That is my dream.

I want to love those I've never met before, show them the love Christ showed me thousands of years ago when He died for me. I want to live my faith out, not simply tell people what I think about God. So for the rest of my life, I will strive to love people with all my heart because I know Christ loves me with all of His.

This life is confusing, but I know everything will make sense eventually. God put me here for a reason and I know that His plans for me are greater than I could ever begin to imagine.


:) Lauren

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." - 1 Corinthians 13:13