Holding Out for a Hero

"I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong, he's gotta be fast"

I know I'm young. And I've loved before. Everyone says to just keep waiting, that he's out there somewhere. That I'll meet someone who will treat me right.

I've been alone for almost a year and a half. Don't get me wrong, there's a lot of great things about being single. I've loved having no expectations. I've loved discovering who I am without being attached to someone else. I've loved finding my worth in Christ rather than in someone else.

But I've always been the girl that wanted to fall in love when she was really young. I wanted that love story where the 2 young crazy kids fell in love and stayed together for the rest of their lives. But you don't really have control over your love story. When it happens, it happens.

Like I said, I've loved before. I've been in love. He knows who he is. So I know what it's like to give your heart to someone else; I'm not some naive little girl who only sees love as a fairytale and is blind to its reality. I guess that's what will make my next relationship so much better. I'm not as stupid as I was before; I know things won't be perfect all the time. It will be hard, but I know neither of us will give up or leave.

Since the end of that relationship, I have gone on a couple of dates. I've met a lot of guys that I could see myself with too. I even gave a few of them a chance. But what I've learned from these dates is that you can't compromise yourself or your beliefs for a guy. I have to have a guy who is completely in love with Christ. Sure, I could've had something really cool with some of those other guys. But we weren't quite on the same page in what we believed. For example, there was this guy that I really did like and every time we would talk, I would do that stupid girl thing where I would imagine the rest of our lives together. But he wasn't like me. He didn't live the way I lived, he didn't believe in what I believed in.

So I'm holding out for a hero.

I'm sure he's out there somewhere. Maybe he's out with his friends tonight or maybe he's at home with his family, I don't know. But I know God is preparing someone for me, who was made just for me. These days, there's so many guys out there that just take away the hope in ever finding love again. Whether it's those frat boys on the bus who just can't stop talking about those girls they slept with the night before or even that one boy you've had a crush on who doesn't seem to notice when you've gone out of your way to show him you care.

But I have faith he's out there. I have faith that God will make everything work out when he wants them to. I have faith that my time waiting isn't time wasted. I have faith God will show me a man who makes me realize why none of these other relationships or dates ever worked out.

Words cannot describe how much I want to meet this guy. I can't wait to be able to look back at my worrying and just completely laugh. I can't wait.

I have faith in God's timing and that he's going to bring me my soul mate someday. On days like today, where I've spent my whole day in places that brought back memories of when I was in love, I hold on to this and that God will always take care of me.

God knows what he's doing.

Love,
Lauren

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11